Sunday, April 19, 2020
Disgusting, Dad?
I was so disgusted it mattered how my dad treats his sister 3 years younger and not me, while he make me out to be connected to him now. Like, he has to be so proper around her unless it's his always taking hatred out against me and following me around!
Going for an Attack?
What if you go for what's wrong but not in a way that gives in to someone who's right?
Going for What's Good
Do you make a spectacle of perfection? Like, on the issue, oh stop the world, but not do it?
"A Warm Welcome"
I didn't "expect" to be welcomed so suspiciously in Europe, like France or Germany or any country.
"Kindness Kills"
Is the ability to be kind and engaging a weapon of showing off and stealing attention?
Message Board Post by Me
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Very nice post.
I know Lilith and her socks act uppity like I did something. It's hard to get that across when I feel attacked for whatever reason. There may be other spoilsports lurking here, as well ... who "off" me like Orlando, like they can't connect for no apparent reason. Then, I bring race into the picture. I'm part white, and other Asians talk as much as they want, so it's not that I'm bad because I'm part Asian.
Very nice post.
I know Lilith and her socks act uppity like I did something. It's hard to get that across when I feel attacked for whatever reason. There may be other spoilsports lurking here, as well ... who "off" me like Orlando, like they can't connect for no apparent reason. Then, I bring race into the picture. I'm part white, and other Asians talk as much as they want, so it's not that I'm bad because I'm part Asian.
Hurtful
It's like someone has to have command over me, but the older lady I like feels hurt he is so annoying.
One Thing
I slip a little and rightfully feel upset / at someone, and my life is over with my relationship with an older lady I like.
However, when she has a special need it always gets taken care of.
However, when she has a special need it always gets taken care of.
One Thing
I slip a little and rightfully feel upset / at someone, and my life is over with my relationship with an older lady I like.
However, when she has a special need it always gets taken care of.
However, when she has a special need it always gets taken care of.
Hungry for Power of Stimulation
I sensed someone according to others won't remove her problem for me from my life, wanting to catch me when I'm vulnerable or feeling bad about something I did.
Thursday, April 16, 2020
Playing Favorites for No Real Reason
It seems like Baby Boomers suddenly think there's something wrong with Generation Y kids and are frantic and dropped all else and even got in others's way. It may be them blaming the world.
Monday, April 13, 2020
Europeans Around My Age
A lot of people around my age care more about me than the older lady I like in that they see she has problems to do with me, not sure if it's a combination of her attitude as though she didn't accept me or secretly pretending or making herself believe she is trying to stay safe socially. She does seem upset at me sometimes, so that's why, maybe, I think. They just know it's important to be nice to me and aren't especially conceited in how they act or anything...
So...
So...
Other People
are not welcome in my personal life, are not wanted, they come on like okay I'm gonna listen to this, like they have a say in it via the people monitoring me in private, they're just not likeable!
My 2 Aunts
I think they are both super amazing in the same way, but I know one some things are very important to her.
Look for someone else.
People only blame America as a melting pot for wearing jeans, just to confront an Asian in the end, but don't confront me in any way I'm not all Asian!
Feeling Bad
I don't want to be like my dad, so I have to try not to trust him. People are doing things to me they wouldn't do if my mom were alive.
Like, he likes to be too contained and because of it seems to find it hilarious not to be as expressive. Generally, the common man seems to be like that and especially the denizens of Central Florida. They think I'm just all over the place, but it's a great achievement to feel... It's like growing up to learn to be happier in your environment rather than just too introverted all the time.
Like, he likes to be too contained and because of it seems to find it hilarious not to be as expressive. Generally, the common man seems to be like that and especially the denizens of Central Florida. They think I'm just all over the place, but it's a great achievement to feel... It's like growing up to learn to be happier in your environment rather than just too introverted all the time.
About Being Destroyed
It makes people uncomfortable I'm one of the people interested in assimilating into Europe but my mom has heritage like European in ways because it's from out of the US anyway, so they just want to make it not work for me forever.
German Control
Maybe, some Germans want the control over non-whites so they can "take care of them" "for good."
Message Board Post by Me
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Why does it seem like Germans historically are separate from...
…the Near East and Southern Europeans? Aren't they related to Southern Europeans? Why do non-Europeans pick at Germans so much yet are not interested in the Irish? Darker ethnicities should have just went all the way and coexist with the Eskimos.
Why does it seem like Germans historically are separate from...
…the Near East and Southern Europeans? Aren't they related to Southern Europeans? Why do non-Europeans pick at Germans so much yet are not interested in the Irish? Darker ethnicities should have just went all the way and coexist with the Eskimos.
Saturday, April 11, 2020
Message Board Post by Me
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(I'm referring to (nice) posters on the board.)
I think they are just mean, even random strangers. In other ways, they remind me of Elizabeth Warren because I think she would find fault in me, though I still supported her. I don't approve of singling me out like I'm different in a bad way, like joking around like it's just a schtick.
(I'm referring to (nice) posters on the board.)
I think they are just mean, even random strangers. In other ways, they remind me of Elizabeth Warren because I think she would find fault in me, though I still supported her. I don't approve of singling me out like I'm different in a bad way, like joking around like it's just a schtick.
Friday, April 10, 2020
A New Generation Accepted by Early Generation X?
When they drop me, they remind Generation Y they beat me all along like Generation Z and may even be "the one.."
"What works for YOU?"
You might not catch this upfront, but if you can't see older people are just worrying about making the environment work for Generation YZ.
They don't care about me anymore because they can imagine me in trouble for weird things, like if something weird happened at school, if I'm not as reserved at home in conjunction with some thing maybe, just how I feel and problems from racism, etc., maybe specific things that just don't happen much and aren't intended to be bad. It just builds.
They don't care about me anymore because they can imagine me in trouble for weird things, like if something weird happened at school, if I'm not as reserved at home in conjunction with some thing maybe, just how I feel and problems from racism, etc., maybe specific things that just don't happen much and aren't intended to be bad. It just builds.
Warlike Worries
I'm sure I'm rejected by the world as a Generation XY. Look around, it's all about everyone else. I am just being used, in some lights. I don't feel invited, and people think I'm in trouble when I was always the good one. It's like with racism, it doesn't apply to everyone; I can say it's an added battle.
Racial Mixes
I'm watching The Emoji Movie.. Asians and other mixed Asians can assimilate with other races, like here Black, if they want to. I notice commercials make me feel singled out using Black people, like I'm different.
Why is anyone considered Whiter than me?
Why is anyone considered Whiter than me?
"Down in the Dumps" - Generation X
It seems like Generation YZ has more options technically, so why anyone bother helping Generation X and letting them feel successful about their goals.
Thursday, April 9, 2020
Comfortable World For...
The media and the world let Generation YZ feel comfortable, despite the mistakes of Baby Boomers or Late Boomers. They might feel humble and tricky, but the reality is everyone else is feeling worse, except maybe Late Boomers themselves, especially ones in Europe or who are undercover.
A Winning War
Too many people fight for the miracle of people born in Generation YZ. They can get away with anything.
1/2 White 1/2 Asian
Since I'm also 1/2 white, shouldn't I be liked as much as full Asians at least? I'm 1/2 Asian..
"Plain and Simple"
Since when was I out of the game with people who seem maybe Southern European American acting like they are the cleanest socially? Also, they are the ones who say life is simply 2 cheeks and a nose. They use it against Asians when they talk to other white people.
Racist Members of Other Prominent/Well-Known Cultures
Do racist Italians rule the world socially?
Why all the interest in laborious schoolwork? but have it be busywork, like memorizing words more than "learning?" or preparing for a career in college? ... and the assignments we do have mostly we have to spend hours doing them at home if we want to finish our homework, rather than learning while getting the words to memorize in class or "what have you." (Not all classes are that way, but they still might not be good enough.) (I bet different schools could learn different ways, but this is like the extent of my experience.)
Why is Hollywood so disillusioned? We don't need those weirdos whoever they are thinking they have a hold of other cultures or "what have you." Why don't they have anything else to do than ruin other people's lives? Why are different foreign cultures always "messing with the system?" If other people don't like it doesn't mean I have to.
Why all the interest in laborious schoolwork? but have it be busywork, like memorizing words more than "learning?" or preparing for a career in college? ... and the assignments we do have mostly we have to spend hours doing them at home if we want to finish our homework, rather than learning while getting the words to memorize in class or "what have you." (Not all classes are that way, but they still might not be good enough.) (I bet different schools could learn different ways, but this is like the extent of my experience.)
Why is Hollywood so disillusioned? We don't need those weirdos whoever they are thinking they have a hold of other cultures or "what have you." Why don't they have anything else to do than ruin other people's lives? Why are different foreign cultures always "messing with the system?" If other people don't like it doesn't mean I have to.
Log
I'm supposed to take my blood sugar twice a day and will see someone again in 2 weeks. I take like 5-10 pills for diabetes, did not want to start insulin. I am recording all I eat and when and when I sleep and exercise. Like I said, I will quit school in May and just go to the gym to get of diabetes ... and if I have to work. I'll probably move to Broward County, like in Davie, ASAP, because my dad will probably die in 6-12 months and I will have nothing.
Problems From the "Authority"
Others's bad behavior, like in school all the time, defined the coming of my problems from older adults who oversaw them. They were grumpy and cranky Baby Boomers.
Anything You Can Do I Can Do Better, I Can Do Anything Better Than You, No You Can't, Yes I Can...
It seems people think therefore, because they falsely think I'm in trouble, that everyone else is better than me and I deserve to have all I earned socially taken away rather than shared with others.
An Accomplished, Perfectly Normal Girl
I am actually a bit disappointed in the negative opinion I feel is clear my relatives have put against me. In school, I was a perfectly normal girl and we all had similar issues of our generation. My relatives and sometimes others like that tend to think I'm always in some repeated state of confusion to them, but I do not feel I accept that kind of bond. Other kids I'm related to play it cool, but I'm the quiet one who wanted to talk and wasn't talked to as much, so they think I'm painfully shy when all they had to do was quit ignoring me. They think I want to feel belittled like I succumbed. I'm not sure if you get it. It's like a feeling you're too much like a baby to have a mature exchange with anyone, but I was mature in school all the time. Then, they rub your back and laugh hysterically sometimes and are always in this superior guise among one another towards you. They are tacky with you and think you are sojourning with them in this way, like I'm not good in quality because my life was made so bad by the world and school, while others goofed off with an upper hand. I behave because it is good, but yea why listen to them, like otherwise?
Wednesday, April 8, 2020
Oh ho ho ho!
People jumped on the bandwagon professing their belief that only people who act glamorous are morally sound.
Is anyone accomplished not abused out of jealousy?
Are you seeking people with good looks? or people with good taste even?
Brown Hair
In the end, Generation YZ gets the attention of Late Boomers for having darker hair, like brown like their parents possibly. Look in an orchestra, and all the sexy ladies have medium brown hair.
My generation was pushed to be fair and ditzy..
My generation was pushed to be fair and ditzy..
Monday, April 6, 2020
Against!
It's true, I'm not jealous but I don't get love from other people like others do, and it's now also because of this thing against me being famous.
Why Kids Are a Bigger Deal Than Adults
I know why Generation X kids were such a big deal to Baby Boomers - they have potential for happier lives and relationships, like a pedophile or someone who kidnaps kids.
Hiding in the Orchestra??
What's so dramatic about always hiding in an orchestra and not playing by yourself or in exchange with the other musicians in the form of solos, duets, trios, or "what have you."
What's so cool about playing violin concertos always alone?
In the end, the orchestra sounds better to/for me. I haven't played violin very long, neither.
Oh, I forgot about chamber music, but do they still usually get to play in orchestras because their music is better in many ways, apparently offers solos for minor instruments and singers, I know like in Beethoven's 9th Symphony.
It's funny how expressive solo orchestral instruments are when they always play together. The piano, which I play, is merely a lot of notes. I'm only playing one instrument, to be good at. I also like musical theater, which can get you heard, though you're not the focal point even in that situation.
Chamber musicians seem to be attacking one another, too, compared to orchestras with the conductor and immersing yourself in that game, where it only seems to be the real thing, which it should be.
When I'm in a group of more than a few people, I still feel I get heard or have fun doing it, like singing together. I'm usually better than the others is why, so I'm not following along. I just follow the conductor or accompanist.
What's so cool about playing violin concertos always alone?
In the end, the orchestra sounds better to/for me. I haven't played violin very long, neither.
Oh, I forgot about chamber music, but do they still usually get to play in orchestras because their music is better in many ways, apparently offers solos for minor instruments and singers, I know like in Beethoven's 9th Symphony.
It's funny how expressive solo orchestral instruments are when they always play together. The piano, which I play, is merely a lot of notes. I'm only playing one instrument, to be good at. I also like musical theater, which can get you heard, though you're not the focal point even in that situation.
Chamber musicians seem to be attacking one another, too, compared to orchestras with the conductor and immersing yourself in that game, where it only seems to be the real thing, which it should be.
When I'm in a group of more than a few people, I still feel I get heard or have fun doing it, like singing together. I'm usually better than the others is why, so I'm not following along. I just follow the conductor or accompanist.
Why I'm Gooey
I'm not gooey looking because I'm 1/2 Asian but because I'm 1/2 American and maybe because I am originally from and grew up in America, though I lived in the Fort Lauderdale area at first.
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